HeartStrung

See that rainbow hiding in there? This is what a photograph of my thoughts would look like. This time of year is hard for me. The sun doesn't shine quite as brightly from behind all the clouds and the warmth doesn't reach my skin the same as it does in spring or summer. During the morning routine it is still dark inside the house and all I really want is to stay curled up in the warmth of my bed. The trees have changed from their vibrant clothing into their Halloween costumes and when the wind blows they grow ever more naked. The smell of the air changes from the fresh fragrance of full-bloom to one of damp decay. There is a chill in the air, the kind that penetrates through the skin and tries to settle into my bones. And then the light of day is gone before I've finished preparing dinner. Autumn and I don’t have the greatest relationship. Every year, I find myself turning more inward around this time, which is perhaps a little risky since I tend to be so introve...

I have a confession: I manipulate my husband to benefit myself. And also because it’s fun. Before you get your panties in a twist, please understand: He knows I’m doing it. In fact, I think he actually kind of enjoys it. And, to be clear, it’s less of a manipulation and more of game. See, every once in a while I am possessed by a crazy person. Something starts to annoy me or I find there is something I want that I’m not getting. Whatever it is gets stuck in my head and I obsess. Truth be told, I have obsessive thought patterns  all the time , but it only  sometimes  has anything to do with my husband. So then I’m stuck with this thing in my head and  I have to do something about it . Because obsessive thoughts can really cloud a person’s perceptions to the point where we will only see evidence that supports our position and ignore any contrary information. And that is a trap. Sometimes I consider nagging him about whatever it is, but I  ha...